| Any moment everything can change . . . |
[24 Sep 2004|04:34pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 blank |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Maddy practicing |
] |
I don't want you
But I don't want anyone else to either
Is that wrong
Is that bad
Is that selfish
Is that sad
I want to be free
But I want to have someone too
Does that make sense
Is that ok
Am I allowed to be this way
I want you to miss me
But I don't want you to know I miss you too
Is that weird
Is that mean
Is that rude
Should I change
I want to be able to flirt with other guys
But I don't want you to be with other girls
Can I do that
Is that ok
Is that allowed
Is that alright
What should I think
What should I do
How should I feel about you
I'm confused
And I'm unsure
Someone help me
Find a cure
I thought I had decided
I knew what I was going to do
But then that day you called me
And I fell back in love with you
I told you what I was thinking
And you took away all my fears
My worries are all gone
And so are all my tears
Now it's even more complicated
Than it was before
I'm even more confused about what I want
I wish I wasn't so unsure
I wish that we lived closer
I wish me and you were near
I wish I had more faith in us
I wish I didn't have so much fear
What should I think
What should I do
How should I feel about you
I'm confused
And I'm unsure
Someone help me
Find a cure
|
|
|
| i don't mind spending everyday . .out on your corner in the pouring rain |
[19 Sep 2004|11:09am] |
ok marching band is offically awesome!!!! yesterday was our first competition and we came in 3rd place and we were only 1/2 a point behind the first place band so that made me happy . .we left right after the competition so me maddy ashley kathleen rachel and nick all went to friendly's for dinner .. where we figured out that girls talk about people all the time and me and kathleen laughed for about 54384859279 years becasue i was like replaying a scene that everyone had seen since they were sitting right there when it happened for the first time . . so that was funny . .
and the marching band bus rides are flippin awesome . .well close to it they would be is ashley and maddy were on my bus but me and rachel and nick and kathleen had a great time . .and i learned how to make an origani bird thinger . .cuz nick taught me but if looked retarded so i gave it to someone else but nick made me a pretty one so it was ok . .and he made me this paper ball thinger that took like a half and hour to make but it was really pretty so it was worth it . .k that's like all i have to say .. it probably sounds really dumb when i write about it but it was awesome
|
|
|
| a lovely survey for your viewing pleasure |
[10 Sep 2004|08:32pm] |
NuMbEr .. :
of time you've been in love? never
of girls you have kissed? 0
of boys you have kissed? 2
people you would classify as trust your life with type of friends? 4
of times your name has appeared in a newspaper? idk . .like 10 cuz i rec soccer
of scars on your body? 3 on each foot
of things in your past you regret? i dont' remember
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE:
pretty? sometimes. . not usully
funny? yup
hot? no
friendly? yeah
ugly? sometimes
loveable? hope so
caring? i try to be
sweet? i'm not sure
dorky? god yes
FAVORITE:
actor/actress: julia styles i dont' really have favorites
least favorite day: monday
flower: dont have one
jello flavor: cherry!!!!!
jewelry: toe rings and necklaces
summer/winter: summer . .definately
PERSON WHO LAST:
slept in your bed: me
saw you cry: ummm .. my dad
sent you an email: a comment from livejournal
HAVE YOU EVER:
said i love you and meant it? i odn't know
went out in public in pjs? yeah
kept a secret from everyone? yeah
been to new york? yes
to california? nope
WHEN WAS:
last cigarrete: never
last cry: few days ago
last book read: summer reading
last curse word uttered: shit
last beverage drank: agua con lemon
last food consumed: twix
last phone call: kyle <3333
last tv show: football game last night
last thing in your past you regret? i don't know
showered: this morning
last shoes worn: my vans
last cd played: michelle branch
last thing written: god i love you
last word spoken: "yes it is"
last sleep: llast night
last im: kyle
last sexual fantasy: oh god
last ice cream eaten: long time ago . . .
last time wanting to die: never
|
|
|
|
[04 Sep 2004|08:17pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 blah |
] |
omg i definately have the worst stomach ache ever .. god this sucks
|
|
|
| You drive me craaaaaaazy i just can't sleep |
[01 Sep 2004|12:56pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 crazy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Maddy and Ashley talking |
] |
ok everyone i'm going to tell you about my super awesome day wiht maddy and ashley cuz i'm sure that you all are just dying ot know what we've been up to .. ok
Tuesday night: picked up Ashley at like 9:15 cuz we were all late and stuff then we went to Angelos and bought ice cream so we can all get fat . . .then we had to go to Hess and while Maddy and Dad filled up the tires the AC figured out how much money you can save if you don't smoke (($1,825 . .a year for one pack a day)) then we came home and just talked and stuff then watched Chiago and went to bed at like 1:00
Today: woke up at like 7:00 in the morning cuz the doorbell rang.. .so we complained about that for a little while . .then we made STICKY BUNS and they were awesome . .then we finished watching Chiago . .then we ran go us go us . .whoop whoop then we sat and complained about annoying people and running . . then i decided to give Maddy and Ashley a fashion show of all my new clothes and then Ashley raided my closet and maddy's to find ugly clothes . . .which we found . .then we ate and maddy wanted chips but didn't want to get them so me and Ashley had to bribe her wiht money to make her go to WaWa but it was awesome cuz we had the greatest time . .. k that's it . .didn't you enjoy reading that??
*Chelsea, Ashley, and Maddy
|
|
|
| it's plain to see you've got to be the defination of beautiful |
[29 Aug 2004|07:15pm] |
well let's see . . .yesterday i went to work and had to help KYLE with set up but we had a good time so it was ok .. .then he came over and came swimming and we got pizza and rented starsky and hutch cuz i told him over and over to rent it and he never did so i made him sit down and watch it wiht me . .and like a good boy he did and he loved it .. he laughed so hard he cried so i was happy ahhh i love that kid . .
now it's time for me a reminise ((sp??)) on my summer
--beach
--job in the bakery
--pat
--wakeboarding
--H2O
--kyle
--fun times wiht dj ((H2O . . pulled pork .. dealing wiht pat . .mack daddy)
--campground
--learning how to play pool
--fun times wiht me and kenny and maddy (skittle shooting contest .. . english)
--running
--tennis
--learning how to play jingle bells on the guitar
--flirting . .wink wink .. nudge nudge
|
|
|
| Let's get emotional girls to all wear mood rings |
[22 Aug 2004|01:21pm] |
|
k guys .. . i want a new screen name so if anyone has an idea comment or IM me . . .oh and i want a new layout to .. . so if you can do it .. . i would just love you forever and ever!!!
|
|
|
|
[10 Aug 2004|09:58am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 excited |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
relient k- sadie hawkins dance |
] |
oh and by the way . . .i'm so proud of myself . .. heheh . .cuz i've completed my goal . . i did it!!!!! .. completed!!!!
|
|
|
|
[30 Jul 2004|09:07pm] |
|
i hope that since i'm not in NJ over the summer people don't forget me and not talk to me anymore because they've made other friends or gotten closer to people over the summer .. . like i love coming down to DE over the summer . . ireally do .. cuz i meet so many new people and all but now it's like . . high school . . .and i feel like everyone has all these friends and i don't have any at all .. .which isn't true but it's like. . . i want to get closer to so many people . . jess . bigwood . austin . .matt . . .michelle. .and i want to talk to all my friends again like suzie and karen and lauren and ashley and holly and eddy and chris and my freshman friends and idk . .i just don't want people ot be like "well i have friends and i'm not hanging out wiht her" and i'm having a little insecure moment right now and i know that no one reads this but it makes me feel better just to write in it .. well there's my little rant
|
|
|
|
[29 Jul 2004|07:35pm] |
You are Brooke...
Which One Tree Hill Character Are You? (With Pics)
wow i haven't updated in forever .. . summer's good . .having guy problems . . no one that i talk to about it seems to know what i should do . .and i don't like it . .so i still don't know what i'm going to do about it . .but that's ok . . .i leanred how to wakeboard!!!! and i got a job so i'm doing something useful and getting a paycheck . . nice . . .i don't want school to start again . .it feels like just yesterday it was july 4th . . man that week was the greatest . .tons of kids .. yeah . .it was fun
**chelsea
|
|
|
| Yea!!!!! |
[16 Jun 2004|12:28pm] |
school's out!!!!! yea i'm definately gonna miss everyone adn all the seniors .. . but yeah . .i'm glad it's over
Here's some lovely little thingys for your viewing pleasure!!
| How to make a xoInNeR bLoNdEox |
Ingredients:
3 parts competetiveness
1 part arrogance
3 parts leadership |
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Serve with a slice of wisdom and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
|
|
|
|
[05 Jun 2004|04:17pm] |
| C | Controversial | | H | Helpful | | E | Easy | | L | Lovable | | S | Sensual | | E | Entertaining | | A | Altruistic | | | | G | Good | | L | Loud | | A | Appreciative | | V | Valiant | | I | Intelligent | | N | Neglected | | | | S | Sappy | | P | Patriotic | | I | Industrious | | E | Energetic | | H | Honorable | | S | Spunky |
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
|
|
|
| Random Ramblings (not by Chelsea tho) |
[04 Jun 2004|03:02pm] |
Okay. Hi everyone. This isn't chelsea but you can try to guess who it is if you'd like :-D. Chel asked me to write a song for her but nothing is coming to mind right now. ::cricket:: okay well anyways. Chelsea doesn't update this enough so I figured I would do it for her, with her permission of course =). Chelsea is just an awesome friend isn't she everyone? Thats right she is. If you agree leave a comment!? lol okay. Well anyways, you know what is really cool? Water balloons. In fact, i really wanna have a water balloon fight right now. That would be fun :-D. Except we should fill the water balloons with something other than water, like... whipped cream! or shaving cream or chocolate syrup, wow. that would be messy tho. Okay, you know what else is really cool? chalkboards, especially if you have them in your room, or if your wall is one! wouldnt that be so cool? I think so, or if it was a cork board or a dry erase board, actually anything that you could decorate or draw on would be pretty cool. Wow. Can you guess who this is now? okay well if you can take a guess and if not then tough cookies. :-D Have a nice day everyone!!
P.S. Here's your song chels! (even tho I didn't write it...)
Stick your right foot in stick your right foot out stick your right foot in and shake it all about do the hokey pokey and turn yourself around cuz that's what it's all about!
(and so on)
|
|
|
| Wow . . .it's been a LONG time |
[02 Jun 2004|02:29pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 chipper |
] |
ok it's been a long long long long long time since i updated .. i'm kinda to lazy for these things. Ohh guess what??? I got a job!! I'm a hotess and i'm so excited and i'm hoping to meet all these hot guys that come in since it's right on the beach . . ahhh .. good summer
that just makes me happy right there.
I was sick but i feel so much better now.
I just got my dance costume for our recital yesterday. oh my they look funny. well . .. they look pretty cool but ya know. It's orange and black and we're supposed to be taxi drivers so we have this funny looking hat and everything. I think we should wear our hat on the side and be ganster taxi drivers and i told my class and they all laughed at me. so that was fun.
sorry i just had to do that.
ok my whole entry is just kinda random.
i love my friends. all of them. i just wanted to let everyone know that i couldn't live wihtout my friends.
|
|
|
| The Ditz Club rocks on!! |
[11 May 2004|02:38pm] |
ok . .wow i'm such a loser and i haven't updated in like 59485493878398 days . .sorry. .. ok i'm very very very excited becasue:
*i think i might have helped mrs. shatz get fired and mr. land finally came to observe her and see what a dumb person she actually is . . so that makes me excited
**i don't care anymore about what people think and if i'm going ot look stupid and i like it better that way cuz i'm not all worried anymore
***i've gotten close to people this year and i've also kept my friend from middle school. . .i love high school
****my soccer team . . i love all those guys plain and simple and they make me smile
*****school is allllllllllmmoooooooost over!!!!!! that's enough to make anyone smile
k there's my little happy entry
|
|
|
|
[04 May 2004|03:25pm] |
Post a memory of me in comments. It can be anything you want.
then - post this into your journal and see what people remember of you.
|
|
|
|
[27 Apr 2004|03:14pm] |
|
oh i forgot to say .. i really really really really really really really really really really really need a new layout and i know that you all are just DYING to help!!!
|
|
|
| this *Love has taken it's Toll on Me |
[27 Apr 2004|03:05pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
bouncy |
] |
ok so i wake up this morning and go to take a shower .. so i go into the bathroom and flip the switch for the light and nothing happens . . so i flip the switch for the fan . .and nothing happens .. so i try ot again just to make sure i'm not imagining it or something but nothing happens so i go and tell my parents and my dad gets up and goes downstairs to try to fix it .. when he comes back up, the light still doesn't work and neither does the fan so he just tells me to go take a shower in his bathroom, only when i go there . . the light and fan dont' work either . but it's weird becasue like some lights work and some don't . .so we ended up only having electricity in like half of our house so we all had to take there really short showers ((so the hot water wouldn't run out)) by candlelight and we had no stove, no microwave, no fridge and no freezer so we weren't allowed to open the fridge becasue we didn't want the cold air that was in there to come out so i ended up having crackers for breakfast .. and looking a mess in school today and forgetting my contacts . .but that's ok .. cuz now everything works cuz the PSE&G people came . .let's see today in school .. i read my poem in 1st block and then in 7th i went to the assmebly .. omg tell me that wasn't the coolest thing that Township has ever had .. that was so awesome and me and eddy were cracking up the whole time about the people in the auidence acting like crazy people .. it was the greatest!!!!!! . .just thought i'd share
**Chelsea
|
|
|
|
[25 Apr 2004|03:32pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 rejected |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
maddy and her saxophone |
] |
k this probably won't make any sense but i just have to get it off my chest . .i hate this . .all of it . .i just don't like me right now and i thought i had something going for me but now he's with someone else or at least he's going to be and he want to be and i just wish that i was so many different things that i'm not and i wantto be able to be someone that everyone thinks is this fun great person and everyone thinks that i'm this mean little bitch and i'm not and they don't even give me a change becasue they already has this judgement in their mind and nothing can change it and i just want to move right now .. some where where no one knows me and i can just be whoever i want and i don't have to let people know that i'm smart or anything and i can just be me and maybe people won't judge and i won't feel like i have to prove myself to everyone like i do now and i hate it and i think that i'm changing from who i was last year and this summer and the beginning of this year and i think i've gotten more sarcastic and i don't want to be like that becasue then people think that you're mean and i want people to think i'm nice so maybe it is my fault that people think that i'm mean .. i don't know i just know that right now i hate me and i hate this whole big situation and i just want to get away from it all
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
xoinnerblondeox's journal